Something to blog about...

Well I thought I'd jump on the scale today...it's been a little while, so why not right.  I had a good weekend, over all.  Worked out Saturday, a really good workout too...Sunday off and Monday was a stat and I ended up taking that day off too.  So anyway here goes...down 12 LBS since January 1st!!  That's right...12 fuckin' pounds man..I'm so pumped!!  All my hard work is paying off...I have reached 10 and beyond...there's no stopping me...

I have another goal...I want to run a 5k Summer.  Yes, I want to run a 5K by Summer.  You know, I have set this goal before...and gave up.  This time I'm not giving up.  I will run a 5K by Summer.  I will run a 5K by Summer.  I will run a 5k by Summer.

I can't wait to Weigh in next week and get my measurements taken again.  I want to intensify each month like it's nobodys business.  I can't do this.  I will do this.  Success is what I want.  It's been a long enough struggle for me...it's mental it's physical...and I want to set it all free.  

Today when I saw on the scale that I was under 250...I raised my arms up all alone in the change room.  I was so proud, I felt emotional.  All the way home, my walk is about 20 or so...I felt myself tearing up a little.  I will not give up and I will not let anything or anyone get in my way.  I've realized that weight loss is a fight, a fight with your inner self.  It really is...it's about kicking the bad habits of yourself, essentially.  I am c'mon I have 25 years of bad habits.  I can blame my parents for always making me eat everything on my plate...sure.  I can blame my mom and grandmothers for always making food that was so tasty, but full of fat....But I won't.  You are the only person who controls what goes in your mouth.  You can choose an alternate...I didn't grow up with major food rules.  If I would have preferred a salad, I could have had it.  But I choose the meat and potatoes...and gravy, lots of gravy.  

Not anymore...! That's right people....Success is what I want, I don't want to fight my inner self anymore and I WILL run a 5k by Summer...then I'll go out and buy a Black Dress...it may not be as little as I want it, but you know what...that'll come, I know it will! That's one thing I am sure of.

~T~